TY  - JOUR
AB  - Purpose The purpose of this paper is to offer an insight into mental health illness in academia, and its impact on academic identity.Design/methodology/approach The study adopts an evocative autoethnographic approach, utilising diary entries collected during the author’s three-month absence from her university due to depression and anxiety. A contemporary methodology, autoethnography seeks to use personal experience to provide a deeper understanding of culture. In this personal story, the author explores her decline in mental health and subsequent re-construction of her academic identity in order to enhance understanding of the organisational culture of higher education.Findings This paper illustrates how, rather than being an achievement, academic identity is an ongoing process of construction. Although mental health illness can contribute to a sense of loss of self, identity can be re-constructed during and after recovery. Autoethnographic explorations of depression and anxiety in higher education provide a deeper understanding of an often stigmatized issue, but researchers should be alive to the political and ethical pitfalls associated with deeply reflexive research.Originality/value There is little autoethnographic research on mental health illness in a university setting. This paper offers unique insights into the lived experience of depression and anxiety in the context of academic life, through the lens of academic identity.
VL  - 7
IS  - 3
SN  - 2046-6749
DO  - 10.1108/JOE-10-2017-0045
UR  - https://doi.org/10.1108/JOE-10-2017-0045
AU  - Campbell Elaine
PY  - 2018
Y1  - 2018/01/01
TI  - Reconstructing my identity: An autoethnographic exploration of depression and anxiety in academia
T2  - Journal of Organizational Ethnography
PB  - Emerald Publishing Limited
SP  - 235
EP  - 246
Y2  - 2024/09/20
ER  -